Heart, just cry, cry as much as you want tonight.. for tomorrow, everything will be better. Shut down all my senses, forget about all possibilities. I know who I am, made from thin porcelain, not chipped when I crack but shattered. Isolate my body, seal my heart, hide my face and just let only wind to touch me. I still have little love locked inside me, for that I still can smile when I see the morning sun, for that I feel sappy when it rains, for that I still can laugh to sweet nothings…so please don’t take it away from me… Neither of myself & I want to share what’s left inside nor to ask for more.

Im shutting myself down, back to my mystery like no one has ever know my existence, like no one can ever hurt me anymore. Take me as a script with missing pages, take me as a book with incomplete chapters. A part of me is meant to be as untold story.

Heart, keep on crying… for someday it will wash away the pain and those little memories.


broken and I know, I will heal, someday.




  1. Ariff Shah

    January 4, 2011 at 6:26 pm

    what are u implying? stop blogging?

  2. Independent Queen

    January 5, 2011 at 2:31 am

    No Ariff. Blog is the only thing that I have for a therapy. I don’t keep journals or diaries, but I maybe set my blog to readers by invitation only. Told you I write for myself, not for fame or name. It happened that there are people like you stumbled upon my blog & read it. I shut down my facebook account anyway. I don’t like 2,3, multiple ways of communication & sights facebook had given me. I never knew it can hurt me so bad, in some ways though. Keep in touch. U have my number anyway.

  3. n

    January 6, 2011 at 3:02 am

    hmm… nicely written there… it seems more like a poetry rather than a write up straight from ur heart… either way… its nice with sweet honesty

    anyway, be strong k… i believe deep in u, the former strength is waiting to burst out all along this year… so, cherish every upcoming up or down k babe…

    btw, what wif da “deja vu of pink polkadot short” in the same pic? supposely in diff pic of the same location, then it shall be deja vu rite?? :p anyway, still luv da pic though… 🙂

  4. Independent Queen

    January 6, 2011 at 11:46 am

    n, I can be very poetic sometimes when Im sad or in love. I remember I do write some poetry before I go to sleep. I know this wasn’t perfect but, it was from my heart.

    I know what deja vu means. I put it like that just to make it sound stupid bimbo funny statement. Im a stupid dark haired bimbo anyway. Haha.

  5. jeemee

    January 8, 2011 at 11:20 am

    If you set your blog to invitation only, remember me ah.. I still want to read.

  6. Anonymous

    January 10, 2011 at 10:55 am

    I miss all ur joke and all ur statement. Pls come back.I always concern about you the way im able. Pls Restart ur FB.U r so lucky and yet didn’t realize a lot of people out there loves u so much.

  7. Independent Queen

    January 11, 2011 at 12:11 pm

    @Jeemee: Sure dear.
    @Anon: If u reveal yourself I might consider to activate my Facebook account. Hehe.

  8. Anonymous

    January 13, 2011 at 3:34 pm

    Hehe.. TY

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